Every. Single. Word.

"Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me. In death, in life, I'm confident and covered by the power of your great love. My debt is paid, there's nothing that can separate my heart from your great love." ~ Jesus Culture

Standing in a worship service, hands raised, tears streaming, singing would not be an accurate description of what was coming out of my mouth... more like choking out the words of this song... the words confirming His faithfulness. in that moment, an overwhelming peace washed over me as my heart heard the words, "sweetheart... you are never too much for me... I never tire of hearing your words, and my beautiful one, my love will never run out on you!"How timely those words were. "His love never fails, never gives up, never RUNS OUT on me"!!

Do you ever feel that you are too much? Maybe you feel like you have too many words or need too much attention or that you put too much of yourself into your job or your relationships to the point that you feel like you need to make yourself less... smaller... less visible... less needy. Or perhaps you feel the opposite, perhaps you feel like you are never enough? That somehow no matter how hard you try you don't measure up or you don't say enough of the right things, or you don't do enough for the people around you. I think at some point in our lives, if we are willing to admit it, we can all think of a time we have been too much and/or not enough. I speak from personal experience when I say that I have felt both of these things...  and if I'm honest, really gut wrenching honest, I feel them both regularly.

There are a variety of causes for emotions like this but a lot of times when we feel like we are too much or not enough it is directly correlated with our relationships with other people. Let's face it, we rarely feel like we are too much for our dog or we aren't good enough for the refrigerator... most often if we feel like we are too much, it is because someone we are in relationship with gave us an indication that we overwhelmed them in some way and if we feel inadequate it is because someone we are in relationship with showed disappointment. I happen to be a very relational person and having peace in the relationships closest to me is of severe importance. When I feel as if those relationships are off in even the slightest way it really bothers me. Often times when I feel that the relationships are off it's because I feel as though I've used too many words or haven't done something correctly. Here's the thing... ready? This could kill me... it could kill my relationships... it could drive me crazy and send my brain into a frenzy of overthinking if I allow it to; that's where the peaceful words of God come in so handy...

His love never fails, never gives up, never runs out on me! You see, we will overwhelm and disappoint the people we love and newsflash... they are going to overwhelm and disappoint us... it's a very real side effect of having human relationships. You know what, it's supposed to be that way. If a human could meet every relational need we have down deep into our core there would be no room and no need for a relationship with God. That's not how we were designed; we were designed with a  craving, a deep rooted need for intimacy and relationship with our creator, that relationship is supposed to come first... and the beautiful part is that when it does, when we go to our Father and allow Him to fill us with His love, peace, and joy, our human relationships tend to run a lot smoother!

I have to admit to you that this is one of my greatest areas of struggle. I love my people fiercely... if you are in my inner circle, you didn't get there easily but once you're there I can promise to be a loyal friend who would pretty much walk through fire for you. I crave relationship... with people I can touch and see... I love hugs and face to face conversations!! So, I struggle to allow God to fill me first... to take my heart to Him and allow Him to help me sort through this beautiful mess of life. BUT I've learned that when I do, I find true peace... yes, I still wish He could physically hug me but what I find amazing is that when I allow Him to fill me with His spirit... He sends me people to hug... He's good like that.

So, sweet friend reading this... you may have used too many words today or fallen short somehow... take it to Him. His word says that He catches every tear that you cry... that is amazing love! There is a song by Bethel entitled "Pieces" and it says, "Your love is proud to be seen with me... it hangs on my every word"... rest in the love of our good Father who delights to listen to you... He hangs on your every word and is thrilled when you call on Him. Run to Him... don't worry about not being enough or being too much... He made you the way you are - He knows you inside and out and He cannot wait to show you that His faithful love NEVER fails and it NEVER runs out on you!






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